Showing posts with label MOVING. Show all posts
Showing posts with label MOVING. Show all posts

Sunday, September 15, 2019

Seven Months

It's been about 7 months since the 
Big Move.

SEVEN MONTHS!!
How can that be?
We've discussed how much like 'home' it feels, or not.
We've created new patterns for weekly tasks.
We've hung out together.
And in the end, that is really what matters to me these days,
hanging out together.
 ⇆
I still have some unpacking and sorting and discarding to do
~she says with some embarrassment~ 

I guess that part never ends, does it? 

There still remains to be 3 things I'm not wild about.
  1. The upstairs neighbor with lead feet
  2. Not being able to walk straight outside.
  3. Laundry Day
 Other than that, we're fine enough.
Here is what laundry day looks like:

 It IS a nice room.
6 washers, 6 dryers
 The problem for me remains the scents and process to avoid them!
You can see my small gathering of weaving materials.
It was a weaving day this day.
Sometimes it is a reading day or a phone call day.

I wait upstairs in the lounge area, 
so I can switch my laundry into the least offensive machines.
It takes up a chunk of time on my weekend,
but then it is all done at once!
Ready for the work week.

How mundane my life must seem.
How it feels.


The lounge area and the view.
Sometimes others are doing laundry or watching TV in the lounge.
Usually, two particular neighbors with the ball game on.

Usually I am alone, except for the few strange encounters with neighbors.
There was the neighbor who seemed friendly enough, until he went off about Muslims.
I'll leave that there, except to say, of course I did not agree and I'm glad to have NOT seen him since.  Then there is the neighbor in a wheel chair, who pushes himself around...talking to himself and anyone who may listen, in rather snarky, aggressive tones.  Odd does not begin to describe.
I have learned about myself, that I have a hard time feeling compassion when I feel unsafe.
And there was the day that the upstairs lead foot neighbor came into the laundry room, started his laundry, then wiped down a white plastic chair with a wet paper towel and plopped himself down to STARE at me as I folded my laundry.  I quickly dropped the undergarments into my laundry cart.  He lives ~right around the corner~ from the laundry room, but yet there he sat.
And the ball game watching lady always has something to say, even if she is nice enough.
"Oh you're finally finished with your laundry!" as I head back toward the elevator.
Her voice rises and emphasizes on the "finally".

I didn't ask for, nor need a commentary on my laundry efficiency!
There is air conditioning, which I am grateful for.
And there is a view, which carries me away.

 Somewhere in the back area there lives a small hawk 
that cries out in the mornings as I leave for work.
I've yet to see it, like I could the hawks at the old place.
But, I can hear it and imagine.
Just the calling carries me. 

And the Crows!
There are so many crows around here!
I see some every morning as I head out.
They make me smile.

In other, maybe equally boring news.
I'm reading a new book.
 I'm pretty far into it and have mixed feelings at this point.
Has anyone out there read this one.
Please share what you thought, 
for I'm not sure if it is him and his writing or me and my state of mind.
  
Yesterday was my niece's wedding.
I took only one photo with people in it!
There were so many 'smart' phones and hired photographers,
gracious knows my photos were not needed!
I did take one of them right after the ceremony and  it came out blurry!
ha
 A horrible picture, but their smiles are forever in my mind's eye.
I was interesting in textures and light.
Grab a drink wall, which was later a grab a goodie bag wall
Room divider
View from the balcony ~ The Fashion District, Downtown LA
Plenty of glassware in the SoCal sun

Part of the table decor. Anyone know what this is?
 
Last, but not least, I treated myself to a new little desk and chair.
It is small and has only one thin drawer, so I can't collect more stuff!
But, I now have a place to get my financial life organized,
instead of trying to sit on the edge of my bed! ha
I added the old Carson Valley 'pogonip'
photograph to this wall.
I love being able to look up at it and remember from my days up North.
I remember for two weeks straight, as we were preparing to move back to California,
the Carson Valley was socked in with a valley wide pogonip.
My EX was working up in Tahoe, where it was brilliant blue skies.
Yet, I was home packing, with two babies under the age of three 
and solid , gray, frozen skies!  It was wild!

New desk, chair and pillow

May your mundane tasks contain some interest and gratitude. 
May life's big moments provide time for small reflections.
May possibilities come in the most surprising ways.
xo

Photographs by NAE ©2019  

Saturday, March 30, 2019

Moved In and Moving On


Now begins, the good, old regular living and all that it entails!


         
I Lived To Tell About It | War & Pierce | Playing For Change | Live Outside


I do still have some boxes or storage tubs to go through,
but we are mostly in and living through our days.

That means I've now been buried in taking care of some adult financial decisions that I have either just found out about or have procrastinated on for as long as possible!

I'm not great at this stuff.
I get through (in my own way), but it is hard.

Anyway, I sought some advice (help) and took a first step and
keep telling myself I can do this.
A multitude of small change retirement accounts to figure out and manage.
Social Security, not time yet - but when and how?
Will I ever be able to retire and when (70yr?)?
What about medical?  Okay, Medi-care at 65.
Maybe I should have posted a MONEY song video!
haha 


Treated myself to something silly to inspire me along my new journey

In 14 months, I've had 3 eye surgeries (the last one went fine, 
with two bad episodes of pain, like the first one had)...
gone through this move and a few wild family events.

I'm tired and lighter and ready to finish off these remaining things
(even if I know some of them are really ongoing tasks). 



I read at Hazel's and Grace's and Dee's and Jude's and and and
So many of you going/gone through similar things.
I feel connected.
I feel grateful for these connections.





Work seed pods

Mama Rose

A new home gift



The seasons they are a changing.
May you (and me too) roll with all of the changes we encounter.
xo


Photos by NAE @pomegranatetrail ©2019

Tuesday, March 26, 2019

Timing

I found this in a artist's drawing book,
which has many clippings glued or just stuck into it.
I've not yet decided if I am ready to let the book go.
This book along with a shoe box and a drawer,
hold many a thought, dream, and creative expression.

The timing of this one had me falling into Mo's recent
"I Dream of a World Where Love is the Answer"...
and our Sunday Hike weekend before last...
and now, also, Dee's recent posts of Her Sister's Papers
(Sounds like a book title!  Dee~Please publish all the collages from her papers!).
I have nowhere near the amount of boxes of clippings 
that she (Dee's sister and now Dee) does.
But I could.

Anyway, this came from a book titled:
Earth Prayers, edited by Elizabeth Roberts 

Waterfall way up high

"O our Mother the Earth, blessed is you name.
Blessed are your fields and forests, your rocks and mountains, your grasses and trees and flowers, and every green and growing thing.

Blessed are your streams and lakes and rivers, the oceans where our life began, and all your waters that sustain our bodies and refresh our souls.

Blessed is the air we breathe, your atmosphere, that surrounds us and binds us to every living thing.

Blessed are all creatures who walk along your surface or swim in your waters or fly through your air, for they are all our relatives.

Blessed are all people who share this planet, for we are all one family, and the same spirit moves through us all.

Blessed is the sun, our day star, bringer of morning and the heat of summer, giver of light and life

Blessed is the moon, our night lamp, ruler of the tides, protector of all women and guardian of our dreams.

Blessed are the stars and planets, the time-keepers, who fill our nights with beauty abd our hearts with awe.

O Great Spirit whose voice we hear in the wind and whose face we see in the morning sun, blessed is your name.
Help us remember that you are everywhere, and teach us the way of peace"
By Helen Weaver (page 209) 

Water in the creek, laughing all the way!

Light on grass
This world...


 
...can't get any finer!
I just finished this book:
How to be a Good Creature

It was a good read, certain aspects staying with me after wards,
filled with her perspective, which I've been considering.

Now I'm reading:
Grain of Truth
It is by: Ross Laird

I bought this book eons ago.
The title/cover caught my eye.
I liked the rough cut pages.
I had images of reading it in my my newly done 'studio',
while reclining in my refurbished platform rocking chair (bought in 1981) ~
which I had refinished...the wood decoupaged,
the cushions newly sewn in an artsy-funky way.
The chair, studio and promise of that kind of time is long gone.
But the book remained, so here I am.
So far it is interesting, but quite detailed and psycho-arty (which fits his bio).

So, while I am enjoying it (and plan to finish it), I'm not sure I'm up to
the psycho-arty mindset.  I'll have to read more to determine a final opinion.

May your days be filled with poetry and nature and reading.
And if any of that leads to growth, learning or pure entertainment...
well, isn't that grand?!
xo 

Photos by NAE @pomegranatetrail ©2019

Friday, March 15, 2019

Lightness and Light


    

I've been noticing the light 
and trying to hold on to lightness 

Daylight Savings Time
Spring on the wind

Hard news of loved ones 
hard memories of my own

Change in the air,
the season
Change in life
Life is change

Watching these Painted Ladies flutter by in huge migrating groups
has filled me with a sense of peace and awe.


 First thing hung in the house
The lovely weaving from long ago
during Jude's thoughts on 'white' and our trip down near Julian, CA

The light in the this bedroom window is something, eh?!

 Living room plants
 fill the space

Fading light at days end
only brings on a new kind of magic

May you find the light and lightness you need
May you flutter and move
May you grow
and dance in the breeze
May your metamorphosis be amazing!
May you know peace
xo

Photos by NAE @pomegranatetrail ©2019

Sunday, March 10, 2019

The Art of Moving


Yesterday
Yesterday while riding in the car
Saturday going from pharmacy to grocery
Watching the sky pass by

Yesterday I heard this old song in a new way,
for my thoughts fell to a charming 9 month old boy.
A boy with the spirit of a lifetime
and a smile and bright eyes which bond you to him, forever.
A baby whose laugh fills the room and every heart in it.

I would wish all of these things for him.

          
Bob Dylan - Forever Young (Slow Version) (Audio)

Yesterday as his image swirled in my head
these words found their way...
I fell to the clouds




I fell to the clouds and  embraced the sun,
and the storm.



I fell to the clouds where that's all there is
Floating
No boxes to unpack
No storage dilemmas to solve
No mementos to worry on
Only expanse and softness to hold you



I fell to the clouds
Forever young
where there is no chronic pain
and no chronic health concerns
and no adult decisions to understand and make
I fell to the clouds
Where there were no other people to accommodate
No work to go to
Forever young




I fell to the clouds
I drifted
These words of wishes
Forever young
A good life
A life begins
A life fulfilled

Forever Young



 
I fell to the clouds
I fell to the sun
I fell to the storm

I fell






 Forever young
I fell to the clouds
and let the world become a blur

 


After thoughts:
In finding this song to post,
and listening again...
I thought not only of him, 
but his cousins and my love for all three of them... 
how I would wish these things for them all
Seriously
Deeply
For all of the children growing into their lives and
for all of us, who have done that and continue on. 

May you find ways to embrace it all
May you find ways to let it go
May you know the floating and the storming
May you fall into and rise up
May you stay forever young 
xo 

Wednesday, March 6, 2019

When Will I Begin

I heard this song on an NPR interview while driving home last week
and the timing felt so perfect!
After all I've been through, all I've let go of, all I am adjusting to...
well, it fit!
You can hear the interview, along with the thoughts behind this song, here on NPR.
(NOTE: reading the transcript is not the full interview)
 



                                                                        

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When Will I Begin
written by Susan Tedeschi

[Verse 1]
There are papers surrounding me
Keeping me buried
Beneath a sea
These are the things weighing me down
Not letting me breathe
Or make a sound
But it's not too late to start anew
I need some help
Show me what to do

[Chorus]
When will I begin?
When will I begin?
When will I begin to be free?
When will I begin?
When will I begin?
When will I begin to be free?
Oh, be free, ohh

[Verse 2]
Will you walk with me?
Will you talk with me?
Will you say all the things I need you to say?
And I, I'll come running
Then we'll laugh in the rain
And we'll crash through the waves
And we'll sing each refrain so sweetly
Know I will lay down and die
Oh Lord, if you lie
All the air in the world would be leaving

[Verse 3]
Will you hold me close?
Like the holy ghost
Say the things I need the most
And I, I'll come running
Then we'll laugh in the rain
And we'll crash through the waves
And we'll sing each refrain so sweetly
And we'll hold on 'til the end
I know you're always gonna be my friend
All the weight in the world is leaving

[Chorus]
So, when will I begin?
When will I begin?
When will I begin to be free?
When will I begin? (When will I?)
When will I begin? (When will I?)
When will I begin to be free?
When will I begin?


I have been getting to know the new sounds, scents and ways of my new home.
It is different in so many ways.
New in so many ways.

A lifestyle change.
A life change.

I am grateful to J. for his help with perspective 
and the need (or not) for ownership of belongings. 
I've done things that I never thought I could do.
In the waves of emotions and the rains of my tears 
and the real rain of the past weeks,
I've grown and perhaps changed too.

⥃   ⥂ 

I've revisited so much of my life, my old goals and dreams
and I've considered what my life may be, 
now that I've let go.
Past to present~
Present back to past~
Life is a circle sometimes.

⇴ 

A carriage basket from my youth
Good Ol Charlie Brown!

Little house treasure box
Wool baby blanket
Made for my son by my childhood best friend's mother
Family hand work
How I used to see things
Childhood napkin holder, so 1970's!
Beautiful bowl purchased by my mother as we shopped together in my old hometown
 
I keep bumping into things that will need a new home.  
Mental notes are being made.
A designated spot is holding the growing gathering.

Each one of these things (and the many others) 
hold stories,
hold memories,
and hold emotional connections.

But, they will not hold space in my new life.
My new life is no longer my old life.

How to continue doing this?
Perhaps recording story will help.
Passing on thoughtfully has always been my way,
so perhaps that?

Still moving forward.

May your days help you too to begin and be free
ans breathe.
xo