It looks like this outside...
It's bright, breezy and brilliant blue! I'm trying to enjoy the view, as I continue to recuperate. I visited the doctor once again for a new treatment plan. Hopefully something will work soon. I've not had asthma this bad in years.
I don't like it.
So, today there is a part of me that wants to whine and call out for my Mama.
Like today while having a breathing treatment (learn more here) and a painful steroid shot to my back-side, making me want a mommy to take care of me!
When I see mother & daughter pairs in the pharmacy, I wince in the knowledge that those days are long gone for me.
She and I can no longer take care of one another.
I miss that.
The last many days I've been thinking of her and missing her.
It is not a particular time related to an anniversary or a special occasion.
But, maybe it is because I've felt so lousy the last few weeks.
Maybe it is because I've had Jude on my mind. Her current journey brings back so many feelings for me from over 4 years ago when I spent time with my Mama as she passed on.
It was a surreal time. A time I was so honored to spend with her.
Maybe it is the stories of loved ones gone told by the slow cloth sewers that brings up even more stories of my own.
Whatever this is all about, I woke with this refrain playing
through my head and heart this morning.
It seems to fit.
Odetta Sings "Sometimes I Feel Like a Motherless Child"
This amazing version is good for the soul.
As is the coming of Spring and blooms on a special rose bush.
|The Mama Rose Bush February 2013|
I'm ready for Winter to wind down and Spring to arrive.
I'm ready to feel as bright and beautiful as the recent weather!
Now I think I'll drink some Ginger Ale and rest :)
PS Here is another wonderful version...this one by Mahalia Jackson:
I know there are others too, but I'm stopping here. Which version is your favorite?