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Sunday, April 23, 2017

More Stuff


I pulled out my Mama's sewing box, looking for something.
It is not the box from my childhood, 
it's a replacement of hers from my adult years.
 
I hold no attachment to this box.
I thought I didn't have a connection to what was inside either.
 
Then I opened it and my Mama's scent drifted out to greet me.
October will be 9 years since she died and yet, her scent still 
permeates everything she owned.
The material belongings her family now owns.
We all say this.
Open a drawer, a box...unfold a letter and there she is by your side.
Her scent so light, soft and familiar
 that you can almost feel her touch as well.  
You can easily bring up the feel of her soft, veined hands.
Her ways and words rush back to you.
 
Her love circles you telling you that she has been there all along.
 
 
I thought I'd just be saving the wooden spools.
But it now seems there are other things to consider deep within this box.
 
There is a lot I won't hang onto.
Three thimbles, in varying sizes.  I've never used a thimble.  Ever.
I have no need for all of this thread.  I have my own.
Are these bobbins the same as mine?   Mmmm...
I can check, don't know that I need them though.
 
 Then I noticed the pink pin box and the 'made by Mom' tags.
Uh-Oh...here come the memories.
And, wait...that gold thread...
is that from my 7th grade Pheasant blouse from my Jr. High sewing class.
 
OK ~ Set that layer aside...
 
 Legitimate tools: useful or vintage.
Look at the prices there.
 The third layer down holds a box of every extra button that ever came on an article of clothing my mom bought (well that's how it feels, there's a lot!)
Buttons can be useful.
How many buttons does one need?

 And a hand-drawn diagram of how to thread my machine...
in the hand of young 20 year old, 
newly married and 8 months pregnant me.
 
I've got that memorized now.
My machine, purchased on lay-away in Reno, NV.
It cost $75.00 and took me three trips to town 
before I could afford to bring it home.  
I was so proud. 
 
A new sewing machine and my own JC Penney's charge card (a first too).
Cancelled that card last year or so 
when I was frustrated with the way they were handling something.  
I threatened to take my charge business elsewhere.
Employee said OK.
Long gone are the days when the customer came first! lol
I'm really fine with this.
 
But, you can see how one slip of scribbled on paper 
can erupt a volcano of old memories.
 
So, do I need most of this stuff?
Where does it go from here?
How do stop wondering if the new owner will embrace
my mama's scent as something wonderful.
 (((sigh)))
 
Not plastic-coated!
Removed from something at some time
My old tags
"Mom" tag!
Vintage price
Now what?
Anybody want or need anything?
 
I just closed up Pandora's Box 
and walked out of the room.
 
May your own memories be sweet 
and your belongings be just right for what you want/need...for who You are.
xoNancy
 
 Photos by Nancy A. Erisman ©2017
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Friday, April 21, 2017

One Year Ago

One year ago we were in shock
numb from the news


One year ago right now 
were standing, sitting, pacing
Our faces tear stained
Our hearts broken

One year ago 
our voices were shaky, quiet
and riddled with anguish

One year ago
we could not imagine today
we could not imagine how to go on





One year ago, this minute
there was a hole in our hearts
forming, deepening


 One year ago today
One year ago today
One year ago today

 Today, I honor one year ago today
I remember the man we lost, taken in the wee hours when we were not expecting it
Today, as we have moved past the well-known markers of the 'firsts'...
today I remember and look both backwards and forwards at the same time

 Today, one year later
I know what was and believe in what could be

Today I honor not only my brother-in-law, Gary,
but his family as they move through their own "one year ago..."
feelings.
I believe in what could be, because I believe in my loved ones.

Hold your own loved ones close as you move through your todays
One never does know what tomorrow may bring. 

With Love, Nancy
 Photos by Nancy A. Erisman ©2017

Saturday, April 15, 2017

Nuttin' But Roses

 *AS ALWAYS CLICK ON PHOTOS TO ENLARGE

Roses, roses and more roses
and then some more.
These first two are my Mama Rose.
So beloved and changes year to year. 
 This red one above, oh it smells so sweet!
 This one too, changes color from year to year.
Sometimes lighter than others...a light delicate scent.

 But currently, it this wonderful yellow rose bush that has captured my heart!
As I walk up to the door, I am greeted by it wonderful rich scent.
So strong, I stop in my tracks to confirm a rose could greet me this way.
 They dance in the sunlight, against the bright blue sky.
Singing out happiness at the very sight of them.
How ca a welcome home be any more glorious I ask you?








Amazing!

May your days be filled with singing sunshine and dancing roses
and scents as divine as life itself.

I'm off to celebrate Passover with family.
I'll be bringing this favorite, first offered up by a friend of my sister's.
Here is the recipe in my Mama's hand.
Maybe you would like it too.
PS I add cilantro and use a fresh red pepper.


 Photos by Nancy A. Erisman ©2017

Thursday, April 13, 2017

Mid-March

In mid-March my sister and I went to the Wisteria Festival.
It was my second time.  
The first was in the early 2000's with my mama.

I mentioned it in this old post from 2.5 years ago.
Looking back at this old post, it is a comfort to read the comments 
and remember those who used to come here 
and be reminded of those who still do.
We've shared many years together and I am grateful.

Walking into the festival, a door with a quote:
" We must not assume a door is closed, but must push on it.  We must not assume if it was closed yesterday that it is closed today."
~Marian Wright Edelman

You can learn more about the Wisteria history here.

*As always click on photos to enlarge
 

Sisters
My mama's photo is being held up at the corner of the porch, where the original Wisteria was planted in 1894  Almost all of the other places it touches the ground, are runners off of the original plant.  It covers an acre of land and is in the Guinness Book of World Records!
The Wisteria against the mountains was pretty dramatic 
on such a bright and beautiful day!
Beautiful succulent in town

The festival was filled with food, art and music.
We treated ourselves to t-shirts that make a statement from Just Buddha.
I chose "Be Compassion"...because it seemed like the world, my world could use more of that and I figured I could start with me.

Old postcard from my first visit.
Time is not linear in my world sometimes,
as I travel back in memory or live in the moment or consider the future! 
Haha, hey why not!
 May you enjoy your own travels!
~Nancy

Photos by Nancy A. Erisman ©2017

Sunday, March 26, 2017

Two Sundays

Two Sundays
One by foot, one by car...

 Off we go, past the locks...
 Past the rock tucked into the metal post...
 We come across this creature, which has seen better days.
This is not something we see everyday around here.
 From looking down, to looking up...
X marks the spot!
 Someone leaves their branch hut behind...
Fallen tree, neatly stacked
The recent rains brought down a few trees in this area
 Beautiful blooms
 You can see forever!!
 Hiked back to the first waterfall, which had water due to the recent rains!
 Heading out, and under!
 We are so very lucky to have many hiking choices so close to home.
Our path today was to the left of the one where I found the same rock, twice!
I told the park ranger we saw this day, the story of the twice found rock.
He laughed heartily and was appropriately amazed!
 Saw this guy in the parking lot.  I thought of Saskia.



Today's drive, North.
 The story of two trees
 Rock formations reach for the sky

Lots and lots of yellow mustard!
I know there are a lot of wildflowers in SoCal right now, due to our extra wet season.
But, I didn't have it in me for a long drive or the hoards of people coming in droves to see the Super Blooms.
This short wandering was enough to make Monday feel really far away.

Here's hoping you've been able to wander and enjoy nature in whatever ways you like.
xoNancy


Photos by Nancy A. Erisman ©2017