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Sunday, June 28, 2015

WARNING

This is an UPDATE
But it comes with a WARNING

I don't mean to be so whiny, but it will read that way...I apologize.

It's just that I have not been feeling well.
A couple of weeks ago, I got the regular sick again.
Fine.  I'm used to that.
But it morphed immediately into overblown asthma because
we had a leak in the house and so possible mold issues and not great air quality within.

Then then that immediately morphed into the local fire by my house.

I am SUPER GRATEFUL that no lives or homes were lost (only one garage had some damage).  All people and animals got out safely.  100 horses were walked out to safety.  I've seen updates that our neighborhood wild turkeys are all well.  The firefighters were amazing and it was knocked down really fast.  People got to go home.  Emergency over.

But I am cranky because my asthma is off the charts and it is making me awful tired, 
without brilliant ways to solve it.
It's kinda funny when I hear others I know speak of this fire.  These folks live on the other side of the Valley and so all of their comments involve claims of cars cover in ash!!
OH MY!

This has been such a good lesson for me.
Those comments would have been mine in the past, but now having been so much closer, they feel rather silly, insensitive or uninformed.
Or something.

I warned you, I'm cranky!
The morning after the fire, I awoke in my my lovely lavender super soft sheets
feeling like I had slept in a giant bed of campfire ashes.

I hope I remember this lesson as I watch others go through natural or other crisis events.
You just don't know until you walk in another's shoes.

So, it's not working for me today and the asthma medicine won't let me sleep.
It's 4:00 am.  Ugh.

Today, for the first time I drove up my street in the daylight and realized
that the mountain in front of me is now charred and gray (like the pictures below).

I hadn't seen that yet due to my work schedule and driving patterns.
It looks so sad.

My neighbor told me that during the fire (before I got home) you could walk out front, stand in the middle of the street and see the flames.
Today's view brought that home. 
It was close.

I stopped at the trail head the following night to see how much had burned 
and snap a few photos.
It seems like our whole hike is gone.


Flames came super close to this house at the trail head

The bright spots on the photos below are the sunset on this landscape.
There were no hot spots at this time, in this spot.
The trail head
 When I (with some hesitation) walked through the entrance to get a better look. I was surprised by the mocking birds' loud animated chatter.
It seemed like there was many of them in the oaks, agitated by their new world.
They were so loud!

Looking through the surviving oaks

Looking melted, but still standing

Looking for the trail

We're so sad to have this trail take this huge hit from the fire.
After all, we had just discovered it, only hiked it once and it's right around the corner (so easy to get to!!)
Maybe when the air quality and my breathing calms down we'll investigate a bit more.
I'm still wondering about the displaced wild life.

(((sigh)))

Have a good week all and thanks for bearing with me on this post!
~Nancy


Photos by Nancy A. Erisman ©2015

15 comments:

Liz Ackert said...

Such loss ... the only comfort I can offer is my own experience watching a burned out area slowly come back to life, year after year. It is a long, hard process ... especially with the added burden of drought. But the will to live is a powerful force and you will be witness to it.
May you have health ... and happiness ... and ease of heart ... sooner rather than later

deanna7trees said...

hope you get to feeling better. and yes, we need to be more grateful. there are so many others out there in worse circumstances. take good care of yourself.

Saskia van Herwaarden said...

oh Nancy, poor you!
a good old fashioned whine is just what you needed and I feel strangely comforted by the idea this type of whining happens all over our planet....not something we humans are proud of, but hey, a fact of life every now and then.
I hope you will be feeling better soon; if it's any consolation, I too am feeling cranky, tired and not 'quite there' due to my period, at least I do know that will pass.....eventually

Nancy said...

Liz~ Yes, I too thought of the coming back process. We've witnessed this in other close by natural areas. It is truly amazing how resilient local growth is. Thank you for your kind words/wishes. ~Nancy

Deanna~ I am feeling a bit better today. Let's hope that it sticks! I warned, I whined...but I really do know it could be much worse.

Saskia~ Oh thank you for your understanding words. I did feel a bit guilty, but could not help myself! lol I hope you are feeling better too ;)

Peggy said...

Nancy, so sorry that your beautiful surroundings have suffered. And that you're suffering as well. If I could wave a magic wand, I'd poof your asthma away. My hope is for you and the land to both heal. Love to you.

Ms. said...

Things are such, that someone lifting a cup,
or watching the rain, petting a dog,

or singing, just singing - could be doing as
much for this universe as anyone.

(translated by Daniel Ladinsky, from The Purity of Desire: 100 Poems of Rumi)

Nancy said...

Peggy~ yes, your magic wand is your blog-house, where I alwsys find beauty, calm and good vibes! Thank you.

Michelle~ Yes, I love this one and just posted it on FB :)

deemallon said...

breathing is essential, not a minor thing at all. so don't apologize. I didn't appreciate how incapacitating asthma could be until assuming the role of caregiver for my sister these past many years. When it's very humid, she really can't be outside. When it's frigid and raw, it hurts to breath. If people smoke outside her building, it really bothers her. So, no, don't apologize. PLUS, the trauma of it all. I feel sorry for what the land has gone through and how much it hurts to witness it. I hope the pain of it all lessens with time. Certainly your impulse toward gratitude will help.

Nancy said...

Dee~ Such a lovely compassionate comment, though not surprising from you. I hope your sister has some easier breathing days, it's hard with an elephant on your chest! The land Will heal, I do know that. It just takes time. Thanks for being here Dee.

Anonymous said...

Hey Nancy..

I heard out of the corner of my ear that you were feelin' poorly.

Now, after reading your blog, I understand better what that means. (((Hugs))) and wishes for a speedy recovery are beaming your way from Oakland... for you AND your dearly beloved land. Nature abhors a vacuum. When greens are cleared away by flame, may new growth spring up. When you exhale, may fresh breath stream in with ease, comfort, and grace.

You're a gem.

Love you, love your blog,

Melinda

Nancy said...

Melinda~ Awww...thanks :) I look forward to the new growth, in any and all areas (including personal). Glad you've enjoyed my blog as well.

jude said...

Good Grief!

Nancy said...

Jude~ Yeah.

yvette said...

NANCY.......the fire took no life...thank god
You wandered where wildlife go but the are much much quicker
As for copd/astma....tell me about it...i feel so sorry for you
When my husband was afraid to suffogate the only thing i could do for him was giving him reik and breath with him very very slowly so he relaxed and till the day he died he stayed calm breathing
I wish we live nearby

Hugs for you and the earth

Nancy said...

Yvette~ Aw, you are such a sweetheart. I wish we lived closer too. I am grateful you were able to ease the way for your beloved. Even with all of the many, many fires in the West right now, none are near me so my breathing is good. I'm glad you stopped by :)